*In a deep thought* Wait, what’d you say?

The lack of my ability to focus is not in the lack of focus itself but rather the systems that filter input prior to focus itself.

Or at least I think.

To me, focusing was never truly an issue unless I’ve had…

“Focus on the process, not the end result.”

*insert ambient photo here*

That’s what everyone tells us. Our parents, grandparents, teachers, professors, and the list goes on. A “it’s not about the destination, but the journey” level of thinking.

What does that even mean?

If you are asking yourself this…

I feel stressed.

That is the emotion that I am feeling right now, I feel it in its entirety.

But how come?

Maybe I am just stressed for the regular reasons that people get stressed. Or maybe these reasons for stress are my own.

Regardless, here we sit. Typing, reading…

It would be a wise, educated guess to assume that someone almost died.

That would be me.

I’ve kept my calm through mocking and joking about my experience because to actually break down and work through what has happened would be more difficult.

There is a moment of confusion after…

Connor Hearld

Writing to remind myself

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